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Trying to come back.

Posted in Activities, Apartments, Writing with tags , , , , on September 9, 2016 by urbannight
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How I feel now.

I realize that my halt in writing coincided with three key events.  Getting a roommate, diagnosis of Diabetes, and a dramatic uptick in the workflow at work.  I used to fill in my down time with writing because it kept me busy at my desk and it looked like I was working.  In a way I was.  I was keeping my typing up.  Sounds good to me anyway.

The Diabetes still isn’t really under control.  Although the doctor things it isn’t necessarily because I am doing things wrong, but it looks like the natural progression of the disease.  It does get worse as you get older and have it longer.  She said the only people who ever have drastic improvement and ‘reverse’ the progression of it are the people who are able to make drastic changes rather than the people who just make the recommended changes.  But that most people can’t do such drastic changes that would be needed.  My new place is a mile from work. Once I’m settled in, I plan to start walking to work.

I just moved into my own place again.  I still have to unpack and get organized again, but maybe I’ll be able to think and breath again.  Writing was like cleaning.  I didn’t like doing it when other people were around and my roommate was always around.  He had even less of a life than I did.

Work has stabilized for the first time in YEARS.  I actually have moments when I have to hunt for things to fill my time.  So I’m going to try to get back into the mindset of writing again.

I need a new skull objet d’art to commemorate it.

 

 

 

The Seasoning House.

Posted in Activities, Entertainment, Movies and Theatre, Writing with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on May 1, 2015 by urbannight

This movie is about a brothel. All the girls in it are kidnapped and drugged. They are kidnapped by a military unit. While the film is a British film, it seems to be set in some Eastern Bloc country after the fall of the USSR when there was all that fighting over there. I’m guessing the name of the brothel was The Seasoning House as it is the name of the film. I’m not sure as it is never mentioned in the movie.

I feel I should mention that one of the things that caught my eye about this film is that Sean Pertwee is in it. I didn’t think Pertwee was a terribly common name so I had to look him up. He is, indeed, the son of Jon Pertwee, the Third Doctor. He plays the commander that is using his unit to kidnap young women from the towns and take them to the brothel. In fact, the military men seem to be the primary customer base for the place.

They take a young girl who is deaf and mute. Parts of the movie are filmed with no sound other than background music and it is effective for getting into the head of the girl who will be called Angel.

For some reason, movies fall apart around biological function. Angel is def and someone drops a bucket next to her head with a loud clatter for the audience. The implication is the sound woke her but she is def. More likely she felt the vibration through the metal bed frame. But the give the impression it is sound. At another point, someone goes pst pst to her and she turns her head. There is not viable explanation to that. It isn’t like he was close to her. He was several yards away. Lastly, it looks like she is emptying slop buckets into one bucket. But the girls are tied to the bed by one hand. The slop bucket is out of reach. So how are they using it?

Angel herself is very pretty but has a very large, strawberry birth mark on one side of her face. Victor, the man who runs/owns the brothel, keeps her for himself and has her take care of the girls. He seems to treat her with a very strange sort of gentleness and kindness contrary to the rest of his actions.

This movie is dark and dirty and violent and generally horrible. Yet is has some bizarre moments of cinematic beauty. The scenes with no sound but background music, when Angel starts to wash the hand of a girl whose was killed by a soldier as he raped her, when Victor is showing Angel how to inject a girl w/ heroin.

Angel bonds with a girl who knows sign language. Her father was deaf. And through flashbacks, we learn that Angel’s own father was also a violent and abusive man. Her mother kicked him out. So Angel is upset when this girl’s pelvis is broken by a customer. The doctor is brought in and Victor implies the doctor can use her for something that is never explained. The doctor says that she is in no fit condition. Victor says some things about the past and clearly has a hold over the doctor but it isn’t explained. This becomes sort of important later.

Victor seems to be looking forward to a time when everything will be different, when he and Angel can leave and start over someplace new. He seems to think himself in love with her. Why is never really explained. Does he think that because he keeps her safe from the customers and is somehow kinder and gentler with her even though he forces himself on her that she will somehow love him for it? Does he think that because of her birthmark and her being deaf and mute that she would be grateful that someone would want her? It really makes no sense.  I have a theory that when we see evil characters trying to be good or gentle about something and not to turn it around as a trick, we are seeing a weird peek into the person they would have been, should have been, had they not ended up being a sick and twisted individual.

The people who kidnapped Angel and killed her mother (she had a sister, I’m wondering if that was the girl Victor kills in the beginning to frighten the other girls into cooperation) arrive in town again. I think this must be a military town because the commander acts like he owns the place and later acts like he own a machine shop that Angel tries to hide in. He orders everyone out and they go. Anyway, they come into the brothel and this freaks Angel out.

Time passing is hinted at as the commander implies that he is in security now. One of his men is sent in to the girl with the broken pelvis and she ends up dying. Angel now starts her killing spree. Only it isn’t a spree so much. She is really the only one she kills on purpose. The rest she kills as she is defending herself and in some cases, almost accidental. The fact that no one ‘really’ catches her is more a factor of dumb luck and her own desperation to get away.

Eventually, the last one standing is the commander dude and she is in the machine shop, (not really, I don’t know what it was so that is what I’m calling it) and she gets into the duct work and pipes to escape him. He tries to follow her and eventually gets really stuck. I mean good and stuck. The more he tries to get unstuck the worse it gets. He starts to beg her to help him. He is trying to kill her, he is responsible for her mother’s death and likely her sister as well, he kidnapped her and sent her to this brothel where the owner is raping her, and he wants her to help him. At this point, she happens to be facing him so she is able to read his lips as he does this. She produces a rag from someplace. As her clothes are pretty shredded up, it is probably cloth she ripped off. She shoved it in his mouth so he can’t talk and leaves him stuck. The implication being that he will die a slow death of starvation in the duct or pipe.

Now she gets out of the shop, continues running across more fields until she comes to an old lady working in her garden. The lady start to call for help and the doctor who tended the girls at the brothel comes out of the house. The old woman takes a sobbing Angel inside while the doctor looks both ways and then closes the door. End of film.

So, what did Victor have over the doctor? What was the doctor using girls for since all we know is that a girl with a broken pelvis was unsuitable? Did Angel just get out of the frying pan only to find herself in the fire now? We don’t know because this is where the story stops.

I find it very frustrating. I want to know how something ends. Even if it is not a happy end, I want an ending. Not a great big question mark.

How did my mom KNOW?

Posted in Activities, Childhood, Childhood Development, Craft Time, Daddy's Girl, Hobbies, Library, Little Lady, Mothers, Parenting, Princess, Story time, Tee Ball, Tomboys on January 6, 2015 by urbannight

My sister and I are very different.  She was a total tom-boy and a daddy’s girl.  I was the little lady but I wanted to run around and do all the boy’s stuff in skirts and dresses.  So I was part tomboy and part princess.  (I remember finding boards and sheets of wood and we would build tree forts and then turn around and have tea parties and picnics.  Boys and girls together.)

But what really gets me is how did Mom know, when we were not even in school yet, that my sister would gravitate towards sports and I would be the bookish, crafty one?  My sister was in tee-ball at the earliest age that was allowable and I was dropped off at the library for story time, film strips, and crafting sessions.  How did these traits make themselves known as such early ages so parents can put kids in programs that suit their personalities.  I vaguely remember, in kindergarten, begging to teacher to teach us to read.  But that was partly because I had already been in so many library programs that I really wanted to read the books on the shelves.  So what triggered my mom to send me to the library so much but not my sister?

I did ask her, once, years ago.  She didn’t really have an answer, other than she just knew.