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Self Motivation

Posted in Food, Life, Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , on March 7, 2012 by urbannight

About this time last year, I stopped working out.  I’ve made attempts to get started again.  I’ve made attempts to change my eating habits. I don’t eat a ton of junk.  But I eat some.  Mostly, I just eat too much.  When I weigh and measure portions, I’m always hungry.  When I make something I really love, I find myself going back to the fridge, a few hours later, and eating the portion I packed up for lunch the next day.  I really need to work out, but it started triggering coughing fits and stuff.  That is part of the reason I stopped working out.   The other was intense foot pain.

Now I’m much worse off and having trouble getting going again.  Now that is an awkward sentence.  I think I will leave it.  It seems appropriate. 

I realize that it has now been a year and I really want to make a change.  My roommate helps me to have things I shouldn’t be having and do things I shouldn’t do.  This is strange because he has lost 20 lbs in the last half year.  I think I found them. 

I know what to do.  I know how to do it.  I just need to force myself.  I need to find my own internal motivation.  It’s horrible to admit that I haven’t scheduled a vacation to go home to see my family because I don’t want to go home 20 lbs heavier than the last time I was out there. 

So I just have to do it.

Portion control.

Reduce some of the treats.

Reduce some of the carbs.

And most importantly:

Start working out again.

Because I hate it the way I am right now.